I don't like doing this stuff usually. But I don't know where my mind is anymore.Hell I don't know what I'm trying to say.. I'm thankful for everything in my life. Things are just getting insane for me here as of late. I'm so thankful that like, Tray and Abigale are letting me stay in there huge ass house. But I think its time I get out. I'm sure they don't mind it, I've just been with them for too long. And when I think about going out in Bon Temps by myself I think why not just go back to Georgia? I was born and raised there in Macon, it seems like a good idea doesn't it? I honestly think I'd be lost without this small "podunk" town. I'd be lost if I wasn't in Louisiana period. I've had some good times and bad times here, good times out weighing the bad. In my mind the worst thing to ever happen to me was Tray breaking my back. Yeah my own friend hurt me, isnt that some shit. Just because hes a TAD smaller than me he thinks hes cool by hurting me, yeah mhm he will get his soon..
This past week was Thanksgiving!. Its my favorite holiday of course. I mean no reason heh. I didn't get to spend it with my family, but I got to spend it with people thats close enough to be my family. The most fucked up family in the world. Consisting of Shifters like myself and humans and witches and vampires. I have to just Beam when i think of them.. They are a radical group of people. I mean sure Eric and Tray they don't like one another, but deep down I think their bromance will come back. Just because Abi is bonded to Eric and is married to Tray that shouldn't mean anything if he really really loves this new girl Sookie, the fat jokes he makes towards Tray are pretty funny, I give Eric credit for that..Sookie is so freakin adorable, and I can say that because I'm now known as her and Eric's pooh bear. I get this ..at ease feeling around her, I'm guessing its that vibe im getting from Eric I don't know but shes a 10 lets keep her Big E -bear beams-
But yes I don't mean to ramble off topic but I do.. Thanksgiving spent with tons of folks that have different backgrounds it was like being at a homeless shelter..or something like that...I got to try Snake Butt Casserole that Sookeh bought to Sookie's house. I have to say its good. There isn't much I don't like though come to think of it. I ate sooooo many blood treats. I know it sounds kinda awkward or crazy BUT I couldn't stop craving them, so I had blood shots, drank a tru or 6 and even shared blood cake with Eric. I can't help it. It was just as good as the turkey on the table. My sweet potatoe pecan pie must've did good with the company or maybe I eneded up eating it all. I'm not so sure.. I ended up putting cranberry sauce on Nolan's head which everyone got a kick out of. I just thought it seemed right, the whole Simba thing.. He was a cat once..Right?. Now all i needed was for him to break out with a I just cant wait to be king song and dance and my night would've gotten even more kick ass, but hes lame and life goes on.. I want to add that Bianca Northman looked really hot during the dinner. I would honestly kill her boyfriend feller if I knew I had a chance with her. She makes me...thankful for tight dresses..
Oh yesterday when I sneezed it was nothing but blood, but I'm sure its because of all of the blood food I ended up consuming. I just couldn't stop.I want to apologize for some things I said to Tray. I guess I was being mean to him or something. Abi said I was being mean and If I was im sorry.. Its just when I'm around Eric and being bonded to him, I feel differently about Tray, its something I can't help, I just have to say things that get to him, its not like he doesn't to it to me right?.. But anyway, little buddy I'm truly sorry..
I want to jump back on the topic about going home. I think home is the place I don't belong. Being on my own here for the most part I've learned to do so many things for myself. I wish I could meet my daughter Bailey, I want her to know that her father isn't a loser, he knows how to do things for himself and that he does work. I work every day sometimes 12hrs a day. I don't get to live much of my life and when I do its too the fullest. I will probably never get to see my little doll, and for that I feel horrible. Its my curse that drove her mother away, and its something I cannot change so hopefully as the years go, her mom tells her I was one hell of a guy and not some lunatic psycho who shifted into a bear when it was the full moon or when he was angry. Eric mentioned about turning me into a vampire, and you know its a thought I have been dwelling on. No more full moons, no more going out and shifting..No more pain...
